A Loving Journey

i found out i was pregnat on december 31st 2006...New years eve mick and i were over the moon i had been told 3 weeks before hand that i was not ovulating and i need to take clomid .. i was waiting for my cycel to start so i could take the first course .... mick and i were so happy at our news... i was 5 weeks when i noticed i was bleeding i went straight to the gyno who was looking after me and was told that everything was ok and that my body was expelling excess blood that it didnt need .. i was sent home on strict bedrest and told not to move for the rest ogf the 1st trimester ... i was monitered closely as i had 2 previouse misscarages the bleeding stoped a few hours latter and everything was great .... the same thing happened at 6 weeks i was not worried as it was the same as the week before i rang the gyno and he said it was all ok the baby hada strong heart beat of 160bpm ...the 1st trimester went and was perfect .... i noticed that i had some pressure about 10 weeks i was told it was normal and didnt think anything about it ...at 14 weeks it got worse i was still on bed reast and it was doing my head in .....

at 17weeks on 29th march 2008 i noticed a bulge when i coughed my water broke...mick took me to the hospital where i was looked at and an ultrasound was taken ...
it showed my baby had no amniotic fluid around her my memb rains had ruotured they could not save my baby ..... i rang every gynocoligist outside the hospital to find out our options...

the list of disabilities our daughter would have if she was the 1% to survive was endless there was nothing we could do we were told she was going to be born sleeping .... i was told the chances of her being born alive were .1%.....on April 1st i was induced i was in labour for 3 hours and had an easy delivery my daughter Zahra grace chessari was born at 630pm she was 18cm long and weight 350 grams she was long and heavy for her gestational age i was told this is the reason for her coming early as well as me having IC she was heavy 100 grams to be exact .. had she not been heavy they said she may have had a chance We had Zahra cremated and bought her home where she belongs ... i beleive she is in a good place and i love her dearly ...may she rest in peace

mummy and daddy love you very much....xoxoxox

Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I think of our babies often.
Zahra has a wonderful mom and pop!
Sending so much love to all of you.
So sorry for your loss(es).