A Loving Journey

On August 26th a lady who played a huge role in my life after my mother left passed away. She was one of our main youth group leaders in high school and she always knew how to "handle" me with my crazy antics and mood swings. It was very clear to her that I was acting out because my mother was gone so she stepped in and basically took on the mommy role. She had a total of 9 kids as it was so one more was no big deal to her. She was always smiling, always laughing and she had this amazing belief in God like no other I've ever known. It was sad when I heard she passed away but at the same time she was no longer suffering. Her husband, who btw was also my religion/math and guidance councilor in high school took me aside while I was at the funeral home and told me that before CIndy lost her voice completely she wanted him to tell me that she would look for and take care of Kaydence for me. I cried and cried and cried...in a way it was something I needed to hear. Then something really strange happened lastnight.

I've been diagnosed with Sickle Cell Anemia and the past few days have been hard. Most of the time I'm in bed cause I'm too dizzy to do anything else. Wednesday my BF found me passed out in the backyard and I had no clue what had happened. Then last night my BF and his daughters camped out in our backyard and I went to bed just after midnight. I could hear weird noises like a hum then a baby wimper so I put on my headphones and drifted to sleep.

In my dream I saw Cindy and another little girl who now I know was Victoria Stafford and standing beside her was this precious little girl holding a very familiar blanket and a pretty purple flower and as she started to hand it to me she said "I never forget about you mommy, I love you more and more everyday, please don't cry for me no more" The other little girl Victoria just stood there with her famous breath taking smile and winked at me and she chimed in to let me know Kaydence is being looked after by so many Angels that love her. Cindy continued on to tell me not to be afraid and that she will make sure Kaydence and Victoria are happy, well and in no pain.

I literally woke up in a sweat. I started to cry. I've longed to see my baby girl again and finally I got the chance and I owe it all to CIndy.

To read Victoria's story go to: http://www.wix.com/CanadasAngel/Remembering-Victoria

P.S. Truth be told our baby Angels do grow in Heaven!

Oh My Goodness. I have goosebumps!! I am so sorry to hear of the loss of such a special friend Cindy. What a special gift she has given you. Amazing that Tori helped Cindy bring you Kaydence. I hope someday that Toby will come to me and I will know he is alright in Heaven.

I hope you feel better soon and have no more dizzy spells! Please take it easy, and get plenty of rest.

Love Monica